"... and take us to Heaven to live with Thee there." ~ Away in a Manger, P.D.
My post today is of a somber tone. On this day in 1975 my sister, Brandi Chrystol Thoma, passed away. I know precious little about what caused her death, except that she too had heart problems.
I've never asked many questions, as I know it's still hard for my parents to talk about. I can't imagine what it must be like for a parent to lose a child. Especially after only having them for six months.
Often times I wonder why Jesus gave Brandi to my parents only to take her away a short time later. I can't come up with any valid reasons, but I don't think I'm supposed to. All I know is that I miss her even though I never knew her. I know that I feel indebted to her because she died so that I could live. I also know that it would have been really cool to have a sister close to my age.
One thing I don't understand is why I feel sadness when I think of her. I never knew her, so why should I cry when I hang her ornament on our Christmas tree? Why should "Silent Night" and "Away In A Manger" turn me into a sobbing mess? Maybe it's sympathy for my parents' loss. Or maybe it's that Brandi and I do share some sort of a spiritual bond, even though she left this life before I arrived. Either way, I know that I can't wait to get to Heaven and meet her.
My thoughts and prayers are with my parents today, and also with my sister Kathy, brother David, and all the other family members that were blessed to know Brandi.
If you have children, never miss a chance to hug them. If your parents are still alive, call them and tell them you love them... you never know when they might be taken away.
I love you, sis.
"Sleep in Heavenly peace..."
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3 comments:
Thank you so much for remembering, although you always do. This is such a hard day for me. It helps so much to know that you understand how I feel...I love you so much!!! Mom
Dear Brother Thank you for your thoughts on this day. One that never passes without thinking of our Angel, you were so right that you have a special bond with her a spirit of sorts, can't wait till we get to heaven and get to see her again. Hard for me to believe that it has been 30 years.Lives are so precious. Love ya Kathy
Losing a sibling is never a simple thing ieven if simple means simply horrible. Mom lost her older sister when that sister was 29 and mom was 17. She mothered my mom more than their mother did so it was like losing a mom and a sister at the same time. I lost my twin in the 1st trimester of our time on the inside. Mom bled for weeks and they told her she wasn't pregnant anymore... and yet here I am. It does make me sad.. and a little guilty that one of had to go... but I'm greatful for the life I've had. Only God knows if that lost twin of mine was a boy or a girl... but there's definitely a soul connection between those gone on and those left behind.
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